Friday, July 6, 2018

It's been forever

I'm currently trying to translate something into Elvish, for a potential tattoo (just idea stage right now, don't freak out) and finding the correct translation is getting complicated. Anyone keeping up with me might find the issue interesting, so I thought I'd post my findings here.

This is the website I started with, it's called Parf Edhellen and has lots of resources on Tolkien's languages. It doesn't specify in the Elvish scripts, just English spelling of Elvish words.

In order to figure out what the Elvish word would look like in the Elvish script, I did a Google search and ended up on this website, called Tecendil.com. It actually had an English-to-Elvish translation option built into it, which was cool, but it ended up translating the word differently than Parf Edhellen did. I got really mixed up! Here are my posts in chronological order of me trying to figure out the best translation of "breathe!" into Elvish, and then how to spell it in Elvish script.

The rule for making something imperative (a command) is to add the prefix á to the infinitive form of your verb. I got different translations for "to breathe" from different websites, but they were all pretty similar. This post is about me trying to figure out if it was:

súya-
verb. to breathe

or

þúya-
QUENYA v. to breathe


BTW: My username on the site is "Yúlaldië", which is basically a translation of Ashley, which means "a meadow of ash trees". https://quenya101.com/names/a-names/3/#Ashley

Parf Edhellen | Discussion:
Is this translation correct?


Yúlaldië · 0 #266
Hey, I've been wanting to get a tattoo, for the purpose of reminding myself to breathe. Panic disorder, energy conservation, anxiety, ADD, whatever it is at the moment, I find myself not taking enough deep breaths. I want to have a reminder to breathe, and I figure a tattoo will do as good a job of reminding me as anything.
I have delved deep into Parf Edhellen to find as many ways to translate this idea, and these are the phrases (Quenya) that I have created.

Breathe with more breaths! (essentially, breathe more, breathe better, do better at breathing)
á súyanë assúyanië

I breathe
súyan

Do breathe!
alye súya

Breathe!
á súya

I really should educate myself and just sit down and learn Elvish. I just wish I could learn it in a classroom. Language learning is an interactive process for me, and without connecting everything I learn with something else in my brain, the information has no roots and simply gets washed away by the tide of stimuli.

I think "á súya" is going to be my go-to for this. I'll use the Tengwar from the Lord of the Rings appendix to put it into Elvish script, and I'll be all set, right?

7/6/2018, 10:35:26 AM


But then I looked for how to put it into Elvish script by going to the Tecendil.com website, and I was further confused. Here was my reply to the thread I'd started, and no one had commented yet...



Parf Edhellen | Discussion:
Is this translation correct?

Yúlaldië · 0 #267
Now I'm trying to figure out the best spelling/script to use. Online translators are so jenk.

www.tecendil.com This link is what is throwing me off. It shows þúya as the Quenya translation of "breathe", and it's using the 'thorn' symbol instead of an 's'. Why? What's the source? It does look cool like that, but then, I can't find þ translated into Tengwar anywhere else that I've looked. I do think that glyph looks cooler (the red text on the page linked above).

Okay, so.....I found some fine print that says why they use the thorn:
"To indicate that a 's' should be transcribed with súlë 3 instead of silmë 8, use the letter thorn, Þ. For example: Þauron (Sauron, The Abhorred)"

So what's the difference between súlë and silmë? Two kinds of s's. I found an image showing names of letters here: goo.gl

That one shows súlë and not silmë. I'm more familiar with silmë, it's the version of 's' that my friends and I use when writing in Elvish. It's the one we wrote down for 's' on our cheat sheet.

What is the difference between súlë and silmë? Thanks!

7/6/2018, 11:22:27 AM


And then it gets complicated still, but makes more sense. I just started a new thread.

Parf Edhellen | Discussion:
What is the difference between súlë and silmë?


Yúlaldië · 0 #269
I don't know why there are two kinds of s's! What's the difference?

Original post: www.elfdict.com

Súlë and Silmë

www.tecendil.com This website is where I got the súlë from, (represented in English with the letter thorn 'þ').

I am trying to make a tattoo saying "breathe" in Quenya. That website is giving me multiple translations of 'breathe' and 'breath', and it has become even more confusing because its translation of the word "sule" (what I thought was just the name for their 's' character) is actually "breath". So the name for their letter 's' translates to "breath" or "spirit". Like, look at this: www.tecendil.com

Breath

Here's a copy and paste of that page:

"súle": QUENYA n. column, pillar

"þúle": QUENYA n. breath; spirit [stem: súli-]

"þúlë": QUENYA n. spirit [as exertion of will]; breath [stem: súli-]

So there's so much of a difference between the word "súle" and the word "þúle" that they are pronounced differently and need a separate character to differentiate between them so that they're not homophones?

But that's not the word that means just "breathe". It's a word I accidentally found by typing "sule" (the word for that 's') instead of "suya" (the word I found for "breathe"). That's getting off-topic.

To Breathe

Parf Edhellen translates "breathe" as súya. www.elfdict.com

However, this Tecendil website uses the súle form of 's' (represented by 'þ') to translate the word "to breathe" as "þúya". www.tecendil.com

So is it súya or þúya?

According to www.elfdict.com: "þúya", when entered into the search bar, doesn't match anything on Parf Edhellen.

According to www.tecendil.com: "suya", when entered into the search bar on Tecendil, is recognized and changed to "þúya", as if to say that the only way to write the sound "suya", meaning breathe, is to use the thorn (þ) representing the súle form of 's'.

What Now?

This is getting deep into phonetics and linguistics, and it's making me wish I could go back to school to get a linguistics degree, the way I wanted to when I was 14 and wanted to develop writing systems for unwritten tribal languages so that the Bible could be translated into their mother tongue...

I just want to know how the word "to breathe" is translated (I know it's "suya") and then how it is to be spelled, in Quenya script, so that I can tattoo it on my wrist to help me remember to breathe when I'm obsessing over details so much that I forget to take good, deep breaths.
7/6/2018, 11:50:11 AM


In The End

All my sources show "suya" pronounced "thuya" as a viable translation for "breathe". This is what they look like in the Elvish script (called Tengwar). These images came from https://www.tecendil.com/, and I don't know if it's really the best site to trust... I want it to be accurate! 
Breathe: "suya"
Breathe: þúya

Breathe: thuya




I feel like it's settled, but then there's the issue of the letters: the 's' versus 'þ' versus 'th'.
I'm ruling out 's', so 'suya' which is visually:

So that leaves me with either this or this:
or
Note: You can skip to the red line if it's getting too long. 

I can't find the symbol that Tecendil.com says represents the thorn letter (þ). This image shows what the appendix in the back of The Return of the King shows as the Quenya tengwar, and it's an original Tolkien drawing.

There's two versions of 's' in this image! Then there's two ways to write 'ss'. I wish I had my copy of The Return of the King, because I want to see the page from the book for myself...

Here's another one:
The original image had a bunch of extra stuff. THIS one actually tells you the names of the letters--and ooh, what's that up there under Additional letters, first one on the second row? Silme. Oh, and there's silme reversed, and ss and ss again... So I'm guessing it shares its source with that previous image with 4 s's. 
There's also the th/s translated as "thule/sule" up there, first one on the third row. Either one is correct, I'm guessing, but man... How do I know which one to use? Which is correct? Aggghhhh why is this so hard?!

Back to the Basics

I need to remind myself of what I really need right now. I'll start with listing the points I've established:

Things I know for sure: 
  1. To make a word imperative (a command), you use the infinitive form of the verb ("to breathe") and add the imperative prefix.

    á þúya
  2. That looks like this, according to Tecendil.com:

  3. á þúya 
    So, what's the difference between that and what my best sources say is the way to write it? 






I got mixed up. The reason that it looked weird, and that I couldn't find the symbol that it looked like they were using for þ, called súle/thúle, is that it depended on whether I was translating the text using a 'ú' or just a normal 'u'. I can type "þuya" or "thuya", and it comes out the same. This is it with just 'u':
Then, with the 'ú':
So here we have another mystery... Why does the pronunciation dash (actually, Wikipedia says it's called an Acute Accent...) Why does the acute accent above the 'u' add that extra placeholder (the vertical stroke connected to the súle/thúle letter)?

Somewhere, someone decided to make it look that way... Would it be spelled that way in Elvish? I feel like, if pronouncing it "þuya" rather than "þúya" gave it a different meaning, that would mean that "þuya" would have a definition of its own that differed from "þúya". Let's test this. 

Is "þúya" different from "þuya"?

I don't know. I'm asking a question now in the thread.



Someone replied!!! Here's what they said to my second thread.




Parf Edhellen | Discussion:
What is the difference between súlë and silmë?


Elaran · 0 #271

I recommend reading this Tolkien Gateway article: The case of the Quenya change of þ > s.

In short, the Ñoldor, or at least those who disliked Fëanáro, changed the sound "þ" to "s" in their speech, although they still used the tengwa for "þ" in writing (but not for the words that always had "s"). Apart from Fëanáro and his supporters, Ñoldorin linguists continued to use "þ" as well, regardless of their feelings about Fëanáro. This should help with your decision on how to pronounce "þ/s", but remember the distinction while writing in Tengwar.
7/6/2018, 1:43:18 PM




So this is what I said:



Yúlaldië · 0 #272

Thank you for your reply!

How interesting. So it's a colloquialism, kind of like how some Spanish speakers change 'y' to 'j' (calling the color yellow "jello") because of that one king with a lisp way back in the day. That might be a myth, or I'm remembering the story wrong. Anyway.

So what you're saying is, some people would pronounce the translation of "breathe" as "thuya", if they were supporters of Fëanor, and some would pronounce it as "suya" if they disliked Fëanor. So I have to decide if I like Fëanor or not, and then decide how to pronounce the word when I tell people about my tattoo?

You say they changed "þ" to "s", but not for words that always had "s". How can I tell if this word súya/þúya always had "s" or if it was originally "þ"? One website (Tecendil.com) says it's definitely "þ", but Parf Edhellen uses "s" saying it is pronounced "th".

Another spelling question now, pertaining to Tengwar that I got from Tecendil.com. Visually, that website spells "þúya" differently if I use the acute accent over the 'u' or not (þúya v. þuya). It places the 'ú' over a placeholder stroke (like you do for a freestanding vowel with no consonants to hang onto), instead of putting the 'u' over the "þ".

I just need to know 1) if it's the súlë or silmë character, for when I get the tattoo, 2) if it's pronounced "s" or "th", for when I tell people what my tattoo says, and 3) whether the 'ú' creating a placeholder within the spelling, for an accent, is correct or not.

Thank you!
7/6/2018, 2:29:55 PM


I haven't gotten any replies yet at this point. So far, I don't think it would be such a bad idea to just decide on whether I like it best, visually, as þúya or þuya.
þuya
þúya

As I am mainly wanting to pair a tattoo of 'breathe' with a matching tattoo of 'pray', I should consider what 'pray' will look like. The phrase would be á arca, matched with á þúya. Here is 'pray':

á arca
So that, next to á þúya, looks like this: 

á arca, á þúya



If it was á arca, á þuya, where there was no acute accent over the u in 'þúya', it would look like this:

á arca, á þuya

Although there isn't too much difference, it does change the way the letters look. Balance would be cool, symmetry would be neat.

There are a lot of options here...I could say 'breathe' on one hand and 'pray' on the other, or I could say 'breathe' on one and 'and pray' on the other.

Apparently, the word for 'and' in Quenya is 'a' (different from the word making it imperative, which is 'á'. So that makes 'breathe and pray' look like this:

á arca a þúya












Or like this:
á arca a þuya














So, do I want to have two long downward strokes on my left hand, and no long downward strokes on my right, as in this last image? Or would I prefer á arca, á þúya, which has two long downward strokes on the left and the right hand, from á and ú?

It's finally come down to making pictures of what it would look like on my hands. I'm going to make a new post, and I'll ask you to vote on which one you prefer.


Friday, November 3, 2017

The struggle is in my mind

This morning, it was hard to wake up, too. I finished off my cereal yesterday, and it's hard to motivate myself without knowing my cereal is there for me. I don't know how many times I looked through the fridge and stood staring at the pantry. Eventually, I decided that the best thing I got from cereal was the protein in the milk, so I poured myself a glass and got chocolate syrup to make it chocolate milk. That worked. But so far, it's the only thing I've eaten.
I need to go to Walmart, I've got a little list of things I need. But without having a good meal, I really don't feel like going out. I'm feeling the temptation to despair, to say it's coming back again, I'm getting worse like last year, but I have to fight that. I can go to Walmart on an empty stomach. I can do that. Heck, I've got some Halloween candy that I can munch on in the car to get some last-minute energy. If I'm desperate, and I am, I can make it to the store.
Then I can come home and eat my cereal, and my day will be fixed.
I've got work this afternoon, and the trend I've seen during this first week of the job is that each day is less bad. Which is good. The kids are getting more used to me every day. And it's only 3:00-6:00, three hours of sitting and encouraging good behavior as well as I can. When I'm done tonight, I'm going to my friends' apartment to hang out and play D&D. That will be fun. :)
I can do this.
I can do this.
I can get up and brush my hair, and put my socks and shoes on, and grab a scarf and my purse.
I can go out to the car and get in and drive to Walmart.
And then I can drive back, get home, and eat my cereal.
I can do this.

The struggle is real

The struggle is in my mind.



Thursday, November 2, 2017

Travel Poem from 2013 and 2015


Travel

Suitcases get tagged, prepare for jetlag
As you mount the stairs to the plane
Four layovers on your way over
You hope it doesn't drive you insane

Announcements vague as your house slips away
Leaving for another country
You flew the globe and moved your home
Five times before you were twenty

Now the transit stays just can't faze
Your hardcore travel attitude
You never feel sick with the seats you pick
And adjust well to the altitude

But something inside nags and asks why
You're always in constant motion
You wonder how it would feel now
If you'd never crossed that ocean

You forget the feeling and just quit dealing
With memories left behind
But the thoughts come back, you've got some packed
In the luggage of your mind.

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

Poetry, Volume 1

http://www.lulu.com/shop/ashley-spence/poetry-volume-i/ebook/product-23389434.html

The other day, I was brave

On Friday when I was doing some training for my sitter job, I didn't bring a phone charger in the car. So when I left, planning to find my way to my friends' apartment which was "up that way," too, from home, I didn't know where I was going. Loveland to Mason. I know they're geographically close, but I don't know what roads connect them, lol.
So I kind of drove around a bit, up a road that looked like it was going towards a water tower and some power lines that looked familiar, and down another road that ended up not being familiar at all.
Eventually, and this was like 10 minutes after leaving their house, I found the Meijer and Sam's Club that I've been to before in that area. Finally, somewhere familiar! I knew where I was, but I just didn't know where that was in relation to where I wanted to go... Anyway. I knew I couldn't get my phone to charge or anything, so I knew I was going to have to either wander around for a while (I had a couple hours before the Halloween party started that I was going to, so I had time to kill), or I would have to ask for directions. From a stranger. And the only businesses I'd seen so far had been gas stations and things, and I was not about that.

So, Sam's Club, I figure there are nice people there, it's a cool store. They have really good chip selection there. The people give you tastes of the food you could buy, hot and ready from their booths. It's a cool place. So I pulled into the Sam's Club parking lot and sat in my car, and I told myself, "Alright, Ashley, you're going to go in there, and you're going to ask somebody for directions. You're an adult. You can do it."
So I did.
I grabbed my purse and walked toward the entrance just like the other people in the parking lot. I felt kind of conspicuous for no reason, but sometimes our self-doubt feeds itself embarrassment from imagined sources...
I walked in the door, and the lady there by the entrance was immediately welcoming. She looked like that nice neighbor who's retired and makes quilts in her free time and gave you a handmade candy apple for Halloween when you were little. The kind of lady that your mom would probably hug every Sunday, because she used to teach her in Sunday school. I don't know, she just seemed like she had loved generations of people and now she was loving them from the entrance of the Sam's Club in Loveland.

So I asked her, kind of haltingly, "Hi, are you busy? Do you think you could give me directions?" And I explained my phone being dead, and everything.
And she was just like, "Well I'll try! Where do you need to go?"
"...Mason?"
"Where in Mason?"
I was stumped for a minute because I only knew the routing address that I put into my phone, not the roads it was on or the part of town.
She told me she only knew landmarks, and asked what it was close to. And then I remembered.
"Oh! There's a Red Robin right at the place where we turn."
And she knew the Red Robin in Mason! I was so excited. I just made a connection. Hehe

So she explained how to get there, and I wrote the directions down in my notebook. There were lefts and rights and there were street names and "at the intersection with the two gas stations and the CVS" and stuff. I was very impressed.
I thanked her and she smiled and it made me so happy.

So yeah. After that, I followed those directions! I missed a turn because I thought I knew where I was, but after I missed it, the road immediately became unfamiliar. But eventually I ended up at the Red Robin, and that was exciting, and then I got to my friends' apartment, which was also exciting.

I did a thing. A scary thing. Yay. x)